A Disquieted Soul

It was a long sleepless night. It was one of those nights when my mind didn't stop thinking. The more I thought of things, the more troubled I became, and sleep was further from happening! Basically I had an ungrateful heart. I was complaining in my soul.

After some hours of hashing over things, a verse came to me:
Psalm 42:5, 6, 11 and Psalm 43:5 "Why is my soul disquieted within me?" (disquieted--not quiet nor peaceful!) Yes, this verse is repeated 4 times.  Why the troubled soul? I was looking on those things I wanted to do, but couldn't. Thinking of those things I wanted but they evaded my grasp. The bottom line was, Me, myself and I wanted its own way.

David wanted his enemies out of the way. He was tired of running from Saul. His enemies were oppressing him. They persecuted him, and pointed their finger "Where is your God?" Isn't that just like satan...throwing things at us, then pointing his finger, trying to get our attention away from God?

I find it interesting that my troubled soul came right after my 5th day of posting on Facebook what I am thankful for...I wrote Grace three times. Is there still Grace when my soul is disquieted within me? Absolutely! It also came shortly after I had written a previous blog of my Lesson for Life to be Always Thankful, pray without ceasing and Rejoice always.

After struggling for several hours, I wondered why this was happening to me, and clearly I realized, my focus was on "me" and not on God. So I prayed...when I awoke the next morning, I looked up the verses in Psalm 42.

The verses didn't end with "Why are you disquieted, O my soul...the next part says "Hope in God for I shall again praise Him." God is so good. He doesn't leave us in despair. He floods us with His Goodness and Grace.

So has my situation changed? No! But my attitude has! And that makes a world of difference. I can thank God for the blessings He showers on me everyday!

If your soul is in turmoil, go to God's Word. Read Psalm 42, then pay special attention to verse 8 "The Lord will command His lovingkindness in the daytime; And His song will be with me in the night..."

His Grace Abounds
Barb